Bad Weekend

Finally, I have graduated!!! Glad to be away from the work and also the school (MDIS)… so much of a cock up that they even informed us at the very last minute on Friday that we will not be able to collect our certificate on Saturday. By the way, I did not even receive this email. How ridiculous can this be? The only valid reason why they inform us so late was that they want to prevent us all from refunding or boycotting the whole ceremony. It’s already so expensive to bring guest along ($38/person) and now we can’t even receive our certificates in time…

The graduation gown was so heavy and we have to carry those to Grand Plaza Park Hotel. Next the dressing room was so small and crowded which makes it difficult to get dressed. Following that is the speeches and ceremony. The hi-tea wasn’t fantastic, 3 types of pies, bee hoon, noodle, chicken wings, couple of cakes, fruits and drinks. And it cost $38/person!!! I can have a really nice buffet lunch or dinner at a nice restaurant. It’s really not worth the money. My parents said my brother’s graduation at NTU was so much better, not only the guests were admitted FOC, the food was good and Serangoon Broadway ferry their gown over. Unlike us, we need to collect and return the gown at their studio and their photos were damn expensive. Anyway, I did not engage their photography since we have taken a family portrait few years back and we are given 3 pieces of photographs.

I did not run on Sunday as well. Not a nice week for me huh… too packed to crowd all events on the 2 days. But that’s not the reason why I did not run. When I woke up at 6.15am, my friend, who I have dragged along was sick and it was raining at that time, seems quite heavy, so I didn’t want to make a waste trip down and sit down there to wait for the rain to stop. So I went back to sleep, was hoping that it rain really hard till late morning or it stop right away so I can make a decision. Unfortunately, after I went back to sleep, the rain seems to get smaller and it stops at 7.30am. oh…. That was really a shitty feeling, not here or there. I couldn’t make it since it’s already 7.30am, and I could not participate in this marathon that I really want to… and I lazily laid back onto the bed, feeling exhausted.

Wanted to give Dear just a earful cos I catch him staring at girls again. But after I talk more and more and I realized I have given more than enough chances as this is not the 1st or 2nd time anymore. And this is not just it, there arte other issues which he continues to do it again and again despite multiple quarrels. I told him “usually people give 3 chances but I think I have given you more than that and more than enough. Why? What is wrong here? Is it because I’m not attractive enough or what? Is it my problem or what is it?” He said he can’t explain and it’s his problem, he will not do it again. I find that he just can’t control himself looking at pretty or sexy girls. He knew I was around, so he took multiple stares instead of a long stare, but this is bad enough. I told him I dun trust him anymore as he has been giving empty promises, has been doing the same mistakes again and again, I lost confidence in him and I felt insecure with him. I asked what I should do. Should I give you another chance? And I told him finally this is the last chance, finally one, I talked or scolded anymore, too tired of repeating myself over and over again.

If really, there’s ever again, think I will need some time to cool off now, not been disturb, let him have more time to think what he really wants…