Oh no, has been eating lunches and dinners these weeks… Not sure whether I’ll fit in my white dress this Saturday for Tit’s wedding. I tried going to the gym these 2 weeks, hopefully it works. Haha… Haven’t gotten a dress for dinner though, Shanghai theme, don’t think I would want to wear cheongsam, so unlike me. I may just wear my existing one if I really can’t find one that I like. Anyway I do have a few dresses that I have not worn before.
Although I have been an ‘Ah Yi’ for quite a number of times, but this is the first time helping out for close friends. Tit is my poly closest mate, she’s loud in class, kind, helpful, a little blur at times, blunt at times and she’s like the class’ newspaper… haha… we find out the class happenings (e.g. who’s getting attached to who, who’s getting married, who change her/his boyfriend/girlfriend? Etc.) and updates from her basically, especially now that we are all busy with our own life, work and family. She plans for most of our poly gathering (H04) but guess she do not have much time to do all these now, since she’s studying now and also she’s getting married!! May need to do some household chores and accompany her family now.. hehe… Wonder when will the young one be ready???
She’s really busy these few months, preparation for the wedding, the dinner, photos, programme for the night, etc. I will be helping out with the co-ordination during the dinner, so don’t think I can really enjoy the wonderful food. Luckily Dear is not going, otherwise he may be bored to death, furthermore he don’t know my friends at all, may be awkward for him… Opps, sorry, cannot accompany him on Saturday… Feel bad sometimes that I can’t accompany him on one of the days, especially Friday. And he still has to wait for me till late to fetch me home. Been planning to quit Plasma soon, hopefully will be able to speak to her about this soon, will be hard… ;-(
I really treasured what I have now, glad that i found him!! So far, he has been very good to me, waiting for me after work, regardless it’s 7pm, 8pm, 9pm or 3am… so touched by his actions. He just asked me today to open a joint account when we start the topic on internet banking. Hmmm, thought usually it’s the girl that will initiate this, so that both can save for the future or for wedding… OMG…. Haha… don’t think so lah, we just started, and it’s really a bit too early… as I’m the more passive kind, will only do certain things when you tell me or prompt me to, otherwise I’m more laid back on all these, especially after Dan and a year of single lifestyle, I’m very much on my own, being independent. Hence I find it very encouraging and great that he’s so pro-active, take initiatives on such issues, surprising for man who will do this.
I’m afraid at the same time that I will learn to dependent on him as time goes by and if one day… (touchwood), then I will have to stand on my own feet again and learn to be independent. He tries to meet me whenever he can, as long as there are no classes. Or unless I have very late calls or something on, so we are practically meeting on most days. Since he is so willing to meet me, how do I have the heart to say no to him… Of course I really love to see him, but I’m just afraid of being too dependent on him.
Got a stress session again on Saturday when we Funan after my session with the Sinsei. I thought he was going to rubbed my ankle real hard and I was preparing to scream or bit someone.. haha.. But no, he said that he don’t ‘tui’, he only adjust the bone structure back to position. He said once we trip or fall, the bone will be out of alignment, and when people stands too long or wear heels for a long time, the weight may exert pressure on the positioning of the bone and over time, it will affect the rest of the bone (hip, shoulder etc..). he pull my legs, cracked my knee, hip, back, shoulder and neck altogether. Woa, it’s shiok… I feel lighter, although I can’t that he has pulled my legs. He said that’s the reason for my stiff neck too, sitting in front of the computer too much and stress. So I guess may need to go back for some cracking up session once in a while, maybe every 3 months.
As I was saying, the stressful session of meeting up with his parents and Grandma… he left me sitting at the store to watch TV with his Grandma and she started chatting with me. She seems friendlier than his mum. His mum is a little quiet, and I do not know what to talk about, didn’t really know her interest, so can’t really say much. And I’m afraid of his mum stare (not really that kind of stare but the look seems fierce). Then his Grandma told me that he is very filial to her, asked what dishes do I know how to cook etc.. like an interview session for match-making… OMG… We went for dinner together at the Hong Kong Street Restaurant, Cantonese style, not sure whether they are trying to see whether I can fit to their eating habits… instead of me getting food for his Grandma, his Grandma is taking food onto my plate… So pai sei… Still not very comfortable with his parents and family yet… got to build up the rapport again…
We went to watch “Next” yesterday with his friends, although this is not the first time that I am going out with him and his friends, but this is the first time after we are together that we are going out together as a couple. So his friends were like making fun, teasing us etc… They wanted to go Zouk on Wednesday, he sounds kind of interested then he said out loud, “no, cannot go already.” His friends were like laughing at him, oh yah or somebody now cannot go liao. But I didn’t say anything, I just keep quiet… I said to him in the car that if he wants, he can still go. Anyway I have dinner appointment that night, but he still says no. I didn’t want to restrict him, if he wants to go, don’t want him to turn out like Dan.
Monday, May 28, 2007
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
"Honeymoon" Period
I’m so touched by what he has said yesterday, even though I am not sure whether he will do it a not.
Me: You really don’t have to wait for me to finish work and fetch me back.
Dear: It’s only now.
Me: Eeee, till when? (Make a face)
Dear: No lah, will always wait for you…
When he said that I really wanted to hug him tight, felt so fortunate all of the sudden. He didn’t complain that he waited almost 45 minutes at my office earlier and he intend to wait for me till I finished work even when it’s 3.30am, without knowing whether he has any plans or no activities etc. I have absolutely no complained about him and as I mentioned earlier, his giving covers every flaws.
Later on when we are on the phone, he talked about having to accompany me, but I seriously do not need him to meet me everyday and send me back home, as I do not wish to have the same outcome as Dan that I felt we spent too much time together. He mentioned that I am the most important person (not sure whether he meant this though, not as sure as I felt when he said he will always wait for me.). Of course I felt happy, and also pampered. I just have this feeling that he is someone who will keeps to his words.
He really tried to accompany me as many days as possible. Even the days where he has classes, he will still meet me at times, even though if it’s just to send me back since it’s already late. He didn’t mind and he will do it without any complain.
I guess this is the so-called “honeymoon period”. It’s really a sweet period and sweet moments. I still remembered how he just holds my hand in his car and also how he first kisses me, very soft and light. It’s just so sweet. He tries to find the right occasions to do these, steps by steps, very systematic in a way… I must really treasure these moments before it’s gone (hopefully not!).
Me: You really don’t have to wait for me to finish work and fetch me back.
Dear: It’s only now.
Me: Eeee, till when? (Make a face)
Dear: No lah, will always wait for you…
When he said that I really wanted to hug him tight, felt so fortunate all of the sudden. He didn’t complain that he waited almost 45 minutes at my office earlier and he intend to wait for me till I finished work even when it’s 3.30am, without knowing whether he has any plans or no activities etc. I have absolutely no complained about him and as I mentioned earlier, his giving covers every flaws.
Later on when we are on the phone, he talked about having to accompany me, but I seriously do not need him to meet me everyday and send me back home, as I do not wish to have the same outcome as Dan that I felt we spent too much time together. He mentioned that I am the most important person (not sure whether he meant this though, not as sure as I felt when he said he will always wait for me.). Of course I felt happy, and also pampered. I just have this feeling that he is someone who will keeps to his words.
He really tried to accompany me as many days as possible. Even the days where he has classes, he will still meet me at times, even though if it’s just to send me back since it’s already late. He didn’t mind and he will do it without any complain.
I guess this is the so-called “honeymoon period”. It’s really a sweet period and sweet moments. I still remembered how he just holds my hand in his car and also how he first kisses me, very soft and light. It’s just so sweet. He tries to find the right occasions to do these, steps by steps, very systematic in a way… I must really treasure these moments before it’s gone (hopefully not!).
Monday, May 14, 2007
2 Weeks Now
It has been a good 2 weeks as of today, and I’m glad that I have chosen him (hopefully this period is not just for the honeymoon period). He has been really sweet and dotes on me a lot, a lot more than my ex-boyfriend of 5 years and a half. But of course, nobody is perfect, everyone sure has certain points that we fall short of, including me. His care and dote really makes me fall head over heels with him, despite whatever short falls or in terms of physical appearance etc....Everything! Hopefully, this will last and not just the honeymoon period.
I know myself that I have a bad temper, so I really want to lessen this impact to make this relationship works. I think I have tone down a lot, even Pat, my best friend thought so too. I felt bad that I did not spend much time with her ever since I’ve got HIM.
He fetches me from work whenever he's free at night and I think he tries to keep most of his days for me, except for the days when he has classes and when I’m working. Even when I’m working, he waited for me on Friday, which I know that it has past his sleeping time and his usual hours out for drinks. When I meet my friends for dinner on Wednesday and Thursday, the days that he has classes, he came all the way from Tampines to Bishan to fetch me home (also have his dinner) before returning home and on Thursday, worse, he went to have dinner himself after class (which I promised to accompanying him) and waited for me at Oriental to pick me up. Not forgetting that it took him 30 mins to get home from my place. And I really appreciates all these that he has done and thankful and glad that I have him.
He has no complains whenever he waited for me, my office, my house, any destinations that I am in. He knew that I was a little scared whenever he drives too close to the car in front, he stops earlier than he should. He is deciding to change his sports car when he knows that I am not comfortable driving his manual sports car. He goes slow on me, explains things that I do not understand, he fetches me to my bike whenever I needs to, or warms up my engine, and follows me back to the car park before we heads off to other places. Isn't these, all that a woman would ask for?
When I was working on Friday, one of my regulars talked about my boyfriend (he saw me and the Frenchman when we went out) and he thinks that he is a Eurasian and he’s very good looking. I pretended not to know what he was talking about and my heart did drift a little.. I know that’s bad.
Anyway, he went dinner and drinks on Friday while I was working, and the whole decided to heads down to my working place after knowing that both of us are together, to make fun of us. I was like, oh no, I didn’t want my regulars and boss to know that we are together as firstly, my boss might not like it when bf is around eyeing when I’m working, secondly, she might tell the whole wide world about it, just like what she did when I’ve gotten promoted. Thirdly, I do not think it’s nice for customers to know about your personal life etc…
2 of his friends came first, one his good friend and the other is my secondary friend cum his army mate. They congratulate me (which I find it amusing) and told me your ‘lau gong’ lah thinking of changing his car… Blah blah blah… He’s a nice person lah… etc… When all his friends walked in, all were like eyeing on me, I’ve decided to just look away and do my work, do away with their table… Everyone just seems to have the smirk look (those like I know what you guys did) and I was like so embarrassed.
We went for lunch and movie on Saturday, we went to our individual dinners with our family. He came back to meet/ fetch me later on at night, didn’t know where to go, he circled the city area, then we decided to go to Mount Faber to catch some view. We then move back down to walk around Boat Quay and to the East, East Coast Park. We walked for a while and seated there for like an hour before heading back home.
We did a stressful thing on Sunday. He brought me down to Funan, on the pretext of handling some stuff which he got from Taiwan to his parents’ shop. I was hesitant of course, stressful, not getting the right attire (I was in my polo tee and shorts, with no make up) and it’s a little fast to meet his parents. He didn’t even introduce me when we walked in, I’m like guessing whose his parents are and greeted them, his auntie and her daughter was there as well.
His auntie was like saying how much was the dresses, why did he buy the cheap dresses for her daughter, should have gotten something more expensive, her daughter was wearing Zara jacket and Guess jeans that day. I don’t think he understood what she meant by not getting something cheap for her daughter, he just replied saying that aiya it’s very cheap, don’t remember how much it was. Hmmm, seems like his auntie is not an easy-going person. She asked about my job and his mum was always there to listen. His mum seems like a nicer person as compared to his auntie.
I did not comment on his auntie as I thought that would be inappropriate since I do not know them well and it’s still a bit ‘green’ for me to comment anything.
When we were leaving the shop, his mum asked for my name (yes, and I realize he did not even introduce me to his parents….. Hump…) and last name (I find it a little weird as would a surname matters? Or maybe she wants to know my dialect group.), asked how many siblings I have and why aren’t I celebrating Mothers’ Day back home, I’m like ok, this seems like a interview session. I keep looking at him, hinting to him whether we should make a move. His dad, on the contrary, is very quiet, just nod with a little smile when I greeted him. Then I think to myself: am I the first girlfriend that he brought back or just one of the many, since he seems nonchalant about the whole session.
His thoughtfulness again overwrites all these. He helped with the dinner (which he thinks it’s heavy) which I tabao, up to my floor before heading off to his grandma’s place.
Wanted to ask him whether his parents said anything about me, but I didn’t. I was hopeful that he would tell me himself. Or maybe his parents did not even ask or comment… Well I just hope and wanted to leave a good first impression.
I know myself that I have a bad temper, so I really want to lessen this impact to make this relationship works. I think I have tone down a lot, even Pat, my best friend thought so too. I felt bad that I did not spend much time with her ever since I’ve got HIM.
He fetches me from work whenever he's free at night and I think he tries to keep most of his days for me, except for the days when he has classes and when I’m working. Even when I’m working, he waited for me on Friday, which I know that it has past his sleeping time and his usual hours out for drinks. When I meet my friends for dinner on Wednesday and Thursday, the days that he has classes, he came all the way from Tampines to Bishan to fetch me home (also have his dinner) before returning home and on Thursday, worse, he went to have dinner himself after class (which I promised to accompanying him) and waited for me at Oriental to pick me up. Not forgetting that it took him 30 mins to get home from my place. And I really appreciates all these that he has done and thankful and glad that I have him.
He has no complains whenever he waited for me, my office, my house, any destinations that I am in. He knew that I was a little scared whenever he drives too close to the car in front, he stops earlier than he should. He is deciding to change his sports car when he knows that I am not comfortable driving his manual sports car. He goes slow on me, explains things that I do not understand, he fetches me to my bike whenever I needs to, or warms up my engine, and follows me back to the car park before we heads off to other places. Isn't these, all that a woman would ask for?
When I was working on Friday, one of my regulars talked about my boyfriend (he saw me and the Frenchman when we went out) and he thinks that he is a Eurasian and he’s very good looking. I pretended not to know what he was talking about and my heart did drift a little.. I know that’s bad.
Anyway, he went dinner and drinks on Friday while I was working, and the whole decided to heads down to my working place after knowing that both of us are together, to make fun of us. I was like, oh no, I didn’t want my regulars and boss to know that we are together as firstly, my boss might not like it when bf is around eyeing when I’m working, secondly, she might tell the whole wide world about it, just like what she did when I’ve gotten promoted. Thirdly, I do not think it’s nice for customers to know about your personal life etc…
2 of his friends came first, one his good friend and the other is my secondary friend cum his army mate. They congratulate me (which I find it amusing) and told me your ‘lau gong’ lah thinking of changing his car… Blah blah blah… He’s a nice person lah… etc… When all his friends walked in, all were like eyeing on me, I’ve decided to just look away and do my work, do away with their table… Everyone just seems to have the smirk look (those like I know what you guys did) and I was like so embarrassed.
We went for lunch and movie on Saturday, we went to our individual dinners with our family. He came back to meet/ fetch me later on at night, didn’t know where to go, he circled the city area, then we decided to go to Mount Faber to catch some view. We then move back down to walk around Boat Quay and to the East, East Coast Park. We walked for a while and seated there for like an hour before heading back home.
We did a stressful thing on Sunday. He brought me down to Funan, on the pretext of handling some stuff which he got from Taiwan to his parents’ shop. I was hesitant of course, stressful, not getting the right attire (I was in my polo tee and shorts, with no make up) and it’s a little fast to meet his parents. He didn’t even introduce me when we walked in, I’m like guessing whose his parents are and greeted them, his auntie and her daughter was there as well.
His auntie was like saying how much was the dresses, why did he buy the cheap dresses for her daughter, should have gotten something more expensive, her daughter was wearing Zara jacket and Guess jeans that day. I don’t think he understood what she meant by not getting something cheap for her daughter, he just replied saying that aiya it’s very cheap, don’t remember how much it was. Hmmm, seems like his auntie is not an easy-going person. She asked about my job and his mum was always there to listen. His mum seems like a nicer person as compared to his auntie.
I did not comment on his auntie as I thought that would be inappropriate since I do not know them well and it’s still a bit ‘green’ for me to comment anything.
When we were leaving the shop, his mum asked for my name (yes, and I realize he did not even introduce me to his parents….. Hump…) and last name (I find it a little weird as would a surname matters? Or maybe she wants to know my dialect group.), asked how many siblings I have and why aren’t I celebrating Mothers’ Day back home, I’m like ok, this seems like a interview session. I keep looking at him, hinting to him whether we should make a move. His dad, on the contrary, is very quiet, just nod with a little smile when I greeted him. Then I think to myself: am I the first girlfriend that he brought back or just one of the many, since he seems nonchalant about the whole session.
His thoughtfulness again overwrites all these. He helped with the dinner (which he thinks it’s heavy) which I tabao, up to my floor before heading off to his grandma’s place.
Wanted to ask him whether his parents said anything about me, but I didn’t. I was hopeful that he would tell me himself. Or maybe his parents did not even ask or comment… Well I just hope and wanted to leave a good first impression.
Wednesday, May 9, 2007
Overworked
I have recently read an article that says of a girl who worked in HP, died of overworking… I didn’t know that overworked can be so serious, too serious to be left aside.
Especially with the work environment these days, the stress levels are going rising high and the work load are getting more and more, I hope people will not be too concerned about making lots of money, but also take care of the health aspect.
She’s only 29 years old, she has only live one quarter of her life journey and there are many beautiful things that she has not even experience, like starting a family etc. I guess her mum felt the worst, sending off her only daughter to heaven was probably the last thing she ever wanted to do. I cannot imagine all these as I just can’t accept someone to die at such young age.
Below are the links for her blog and her friend’s:
http://pinkmayflower.multiply.com/journal/item/140
http://kaiyan.multiply.com/journal/item/197
I hope after reading these, everyone will starts to pay more attention to their health issue.
Especially with the work environment these days, the stress levels are going rising high and the work load are getting more and more, I hope people will not be too concerned about making lots of money, but also take care of the health aspect.
She’s only 29 years old, she has only live one quarter of her life journey and there are many beautiful things that she has not even experience, like starting a family etc. I guess her mum felt the worst, sending off her only daughter to heaven was probably the last thing she ever wanted to do. I cannot imagine all these as I just can’t accept someone to die at such young age.
Below are the links for her blog and her friend’s:
http://pinkmayflower.multiply.com/journal/item/140
http://kaiyan.multiply.com/journal/item/197
I hope after reading these, everyone will starts to pay more attention to their health issue.
Monday, May 7, 2007
Frequent Traveler to Malaysia (Feb - May 07)
I realize I have been traveling to Malaysia ever since I finished my final exams in February this year. I went to Kuala Lumpur the very next day after my last paper for the weekend from 23 – 25 February with my colleagues. Following that, I went to Pular Besar from 24 – 26 March with my classmates. In April, I went to Kota Kinabalu to climb Mount Kinabalu (heard that it is like Asia Mount Everest) from the 18th – 22nd, and went to Genting with my friends and sister from 29th April – 1st May.
Didn’t really spend much on the Genting trip, since my friend is driving and he used his points to get the room for us. My friend’s friends have been winning $$$ at the casino as well, so practically most of all meals there are taken care of. On our second day there, we took a taxi down to KL to Time Square for the theme park rides and to the Chinatown for some shopping (similar to Pasar Malam kind) before we took the cab back to Genting. I have never traveled so comfortably before, not tiring at all, as I’m not driving, do not have to sit uncomfortably on the long hours coach (driving up is faster), and best of all, do not need to carry our bags up and down the coach, queuing up to get our passports stamp. So overall it’s great trip, really short and relaxing.
Didn’t really spend much on the Genting trip, since my friend is driving and he used his points to get the room for us. My friend’s friends have been winning $$$ at the casino as well, so practically most of all meals there are taken care of. On our second day there, we took a taxi down to KL to Time Square for the theme park rides and to the Chinatown for some shopping (similar to Pasar Malam kind) before we took the cab back to Genting. I have never traveled so comfortably before, not tiring at all, as I’m not driving, do not have to sit uncomfortably on the long hours coach (driving up is faster), and best of all, do not need to carry our bags up and down the coach, queuing up to get our passports stamp. So overall it’s great trip, really short and relaxing.
Man Again
I have finally decided on my choice. However, I am dead worried that I might make the wrong move. When I told Rxxx (Frenchman) that I am not able to be with him (but I did not tell him the real reason, told him that I went back to my ex-boyfriend. As I do not want to complicate matters…) He continues to be really sweet, saying that as long as he can give me happiness is all he asked for, and what a great person I am and the only regret he has, was not been able to make me stay. I can feel my heart crack a little, but because I did not spend enough time with him yet or do not know him well enough, I do not feel really sad that I wanted to stay on with him.
My best friend encourages me to choose Rxxxx (Singaporean) as she feels that I will lead a better with him rather than Rxxx. I myself feel that Rxxxx will be able to spend more time with me and think my family will be more willing to accept Rxxxx than Rxxx. As I mentioned before that there’s something lacking in both of them that will not let me fall really deeply with them, however, I believe time can help in these. I do not have a really strong feeling for them both, just that I feel Singaporean might be a more acceptable choice for my family and maybe myself as well.
Before I break the news to him last Friday, He did tell me he has mailed a card to me, and I received it today. There’s a card with a dvd. The dvd is a video clip of both of our pictures in Hong Kong and Singapore (like we went to Hong Kong together) and with the ‘I think I’ (Full House’s theme song – one of my favorite) playing in the background. And the card wrote very sweet things on why he falls for me, how much he loves me and how great I am. I’m seriously touched but I do not wish to change anything for now. As much as I want to, but I want minimal changes and just hope for the best. Hopefully I did not make the wrong choice.
I do not have much of an expectation these days, as long as I am comfortable with the person, he makes me smile and knows that I can rely on him, guess that’s all that I’m asking for.
My best friend encourages me to choose Rxxxx (Singaporean) as she feels that I will lead a better with him rather than Rxxx. I myself feel that Rxxxx will be able to spend more time with me and think my family will be more willing to accept Rxxxx than Rxxx. As I mentioned before that there’s something lacking in both of them that will not let me fall really deeply with them, however, I believe time can help in these. I do not have a really strong feeling for them both, just that I feel Singaporean might be a more acceptable choice for my family and maybe myself as well.
Before I break the news to him last Friday, He did tell me he has mailed a card to me, and I received it today. There’s a card with a dvd. The dvd is a video clip of both of our pictures in Hong Kong and Singapore (like we went to Hong Kong together) and with the ‘I think I’ (Full House’s theme song – one of my favorite) playing in the background. And the card wrote very sweet things on why he falls for me, how much he loves me and how great I am. I’m seriously touched but I do not wish to change anything for now. As much as I want to, but I want minimal changes and just hope for the best. Hopefully I did not make the wrong choice.
I do not have much of an expectation these days, as long as I am comfortable with the person, he makes me smile and knows that I can rely on him, guess that’s all that I’m asking for.
Thursday, May 3, 2007
Which One??
In a deep dilemma, didn't know who to choose...
Prince 1: A charming looking French, with different culture altogether even though he's a mixed with cantonese blood, buddhist origin. He is staying and working in London at the moment, will be coming to Singapore soon to work and maybe settle down here. He's romantic, likes to smile, sweet and caring person. But i do not know him really well. We corrspond through emails mostly for about 10 months already and spend a week out when he's here in Singapore. I find that he's a nice person, very sweet, likes kids, so will be a nice husband and father in future i guess. He tried to call me everyday and plans to come to Singapore again (within just a period of 1 month he was here) for our birthdays in July and plans to relocate here in Singapore in September. I told him don't come because of me, he keeps insisting that all along he wanted to leave London as the place is too expensive and he really likes to come to Asia, especially Singapore as he likes it here. He listens to me as well. He hold my hands in the cinema and never let go.
Prince 2: A typical Singaporean with Catholic beliefs, come from a rather well-to-do family. He's soft-spoken, gentle, sweet too, and really knows how to pamper me. He offered to warm up my engine for me when i was away for holidays, and he got to travel to my place from work, which takes 20 minutes, and travel back home to Bukit Batok for another half an hour for consecutive 4 days, he will initiate to SMS and msn me everyday. Initially, he only have my msn address to chat and after like 2 weeks, i find that he's quite a nice person so i have given him my number. We went out for dinner a few times, he will wait for me to finish work and fetch me from my office before heading to dinner, send me back home before going home with another 30 minutes of travelling. We went to Genting together last Sunday, with his friends and my sister, he hold my hands while we were driving back from Genting on Tuesday, and never let go.
Actually, it's a little unfair to compare them both, as i have spent more time with No. 2 since he is in Singapore and i can only be on the phone and email with No. 1, even though, he called and email me everyday. And i just find that the time i spend with No. 1 is too short and we progress a little too fast. It could be normal for Caucasian to act this way, but it's a little way too fast for me. I spend more time with No. 2, for dinners and chats and we progress slowly from there which is more comfortable for me. He did not rush to hold my hands or get my numbers and everything. He asked when he thinks that it's time, he hold when he feels that it's right and they just come naturally... I guess time is really an issue for No. 1, he do not have time, since he's not here in Singapore and he's only here for 6 days.
I feel the same for both of them, and i did not particularly like anyone of them more as maybe they are both still new to me and there are certain things that i find are lacking in them or there are some things that i didn't really like them doing. Time will definately tells, but i guess i do not have much time as i didn't want to drag too long and utimately hurt one of them. I know it will still hurts but at least it's still in the early stage. I didn't want to make any wrong choices at this stage as i am not getting any younger, do not want to miss someone nice and do not want to choose the wrong one to accompany me in the later part of my life. I guess at this age (my age, 25), we should be looking for someone we can rely on for the rest of our lifes. That's what i told Ee Ling, whose 1 year older, facing the same delimma that i am in as well.
I think my stand here is quite clear, i should let No. 1 knows that before he came to Singapore for our birthday celebrations and also before he finds a company to relocate here. It might not change his mind into coming to Singapore, but i hope i can at least make it clear to him, i just feel bad that things doesn't work out for us and he's such a sweetie. Hope i did not make the wrong decision this time. It's such a hard choice. Why didn't one of them appear in my life earlier or later....
Prince 1: A charming looking French, with different culture altogether even though he's a mixed with cantonese blood, buddhist origin. He is staying and working in London at the moment, will be coming to Singapore soon to work and maybe settle down here. He's romantic, likes to smile, sweet and caring person. But i do not know him really well. We corrspond through emails mostly for about 10 months already and spend a week out when he's here in Singapore. I find that he's a nice person, very sweet, likes kids, so will be a nice husband and father in future i guess. He tried to call me everyday and plans to come to Singapore again (within just a period of 1 month he was here) for our birthdays in July and plans to relocate here in Singapore in September. I told him don't come because of me, he keeps insisting that all along he wanted to leave London as the place is too expensive and he really likes to come to Asia, especially Singapore as he likes it here. He listens to me as well. He hold my hands in the cinema and never let go.
Prince 2: A typical Singaporean with Catholic beliefs, come from a rather well-to-do family. He's soft-spoken, gentle, sweet too, and really knows how to pamper me. He offered to warm up my engine for me when i was away for holidays, and he got to travel to my place from work, which takes 20 minutes, and travel back home to Bukit Batok for another half an hour for consecutive 4 days, he will initiate to SMS and msn me everyday. Initially, he only have my msn address to chat and after like 2 weeks, i find that he's quite a nice person so i have given him my number. We went out for dinner a few times, he will wait for me to finish work and fetch me from my office before heading to dinner, send me back home before going home with another 30 minutes of travelling. We went to Genting together last Sunday, with his friends and my sister, he hold my hands while we were driving back from Genting on Tuesday, and never let go.
Actually, it's a little unfair to compare them both, as i have spent more time with No. 2 since he is in Singapore and i can only be on the phone and email with No. 1, even though, he called and email me everyday. And i just find that the time i spend with No. 1 is too short and we progress a little too fast. It could be normal for Caucasian to act this way, but it's a little way too fast for me. I spend more time with No. 2, for dinners and chats and we progress slowly from there which is more comfortable for me. He did not rush to hold my hands or get my numbers and everything. He asked when he thinks that it's time, he hold when he feels that it's right and they just come naturally... I guess time is really an issue for No. 1, he do not have time, since he's not here in Singapore and he's only here for 6 days.
I feel the same for both of them, and i did not particularly like anyone of them more as maybe they are both still new to me and there are certain things that i find are lacking in them or there are some things that i didn't really like them doing. Time will definately tells, but i guess i do not have much time as i didn't want to drag too long and utimately hurt one of them. I know it will still hurts but at least it's still in the early stage. I didn't want to make any wrong choices at this stage as i am not getting any younger, do not want to miss someone nice and do not want to choose the wrong one to accompany me in the later part of my life. I guess at this age (my age, 25), we should be looking for someone we can rely on for the rest of our lifes. That's what i told Ee Ling, whose 1 year older, facing the same delimma that i am in as well.
I think my stand here is quite clear, i should let No. 1 knows that before he came to Singapore for our birthday celebrations and also before he finds a company to relocate here. It might not change his mind into coming to Singapore, but i hope i can at least make it clear to him, i just feel bad that things doesn't work out for us and he's such a sweetie. Hope i did not make the wrong decision this time. It's such a hard choice. Why didn't one of them appear in my life earlier or later....
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