Starting Up

Can't remember my login for the previous blog site for the whole morning so i have decided to re-do on another site.

It has been a long time since i do this after my break-up with my boyfriend of 5 years plus. He introduced me to blogs, especially xiaxue's, which is his friend's friend. I started writing because of him and stop because of him and now starting again... on a new site...

We broke off more than a year ago, it's a long time ago but i still love him the best and he is still the best even though i was not attached for this whole year till now. He is attached not long after we broke off with someone i know. I am really sad for all these that happened even though i know that it is very much my fault that things turned out this way. Because of my bad temper and stubborness. I blamed myself seriously for these that happened, that i give up someone so valuable. Nevertheless, glad (can't bring myself to be happy) that they are very happy together and very much in love. I told myself that the one so fortunately is suppose to be me. Anyway, i know this is over and it can never be the same again.

I think I have changed for the better (my temper and all) at least for a little. I have become more independent, adopted a 'can't really be bothered' attitude and perm my hair for that matter.. Haha.. I believe that i will not meet someone rare like him anymore. There are many guys around me however none has really moved me or make me like him.

I have many things to update but not sure how to start off...

Just finished my final semester of my degree programme, waiting for results at the moment, should be arriving sometime in May i guess. Finally, 2 years of hard work, no-life are over. Now it seems like i have so much time, don't know how to spend. Actually not really, was busy with work as well, aiming for promotion at the same time looking out for jobs... Really happy that it's over, may take up a Japanese course to revitalise my Japanese and to spend those spare time.

Not sure what to expect at the moment, so just taking things easy and naturally when it comes. I'm matured by nature or maybe from my upbringing, so i tend to think a lot or more before i make a decision but somethings not, especially when it comes to love matters. Anyway regarding this, nothing to comment at the moment, not too sure what to say about that, may end faster than i expected but not sure how to bring this up....

Sometimes, people just do not treasure the things, the people around them until they lose them. What a pity... Often there are no second chances given and the person might live with regrets. So try to treasure everyone and things around you before it's gone. I try to do these now, even though it's still far from perfect. I hope i really can do this well and not miss the next nice person that comes along.

Think that's all for this virgin post after so long.