Which One??

In a deep dilemma, didn't know who to choose...

Prince 1: A charming looking French, with different culture altogether even though he's a mixed with cantonese blood, buddhist origin. He is staying and working in London at the moment, will be coming to Singapore soon to work and maybe settle down here. He's romantic, likes to smile, sweet and caring person. But i do not know him really well. We corrspond through emails mostly for about 10 months already and spend a week out when he's here in Singapore. I find that he's a nice person, very sweet, likes kids, so will be a nice husband and father in future i guess. He tried to call me everyday and plans to come to Singapore again (within just a period of 1 month he was here) for our birthdays in July and plans to relocate here in Singapore in September. I told him don't come because of me, he keeps insisting that all along he wanted to leave London as the place is too expensive and he really likes to come to Asia, especially Singapore as he likes it here. He listens to me as well. He hold my hands in the cinema and never let go.

Prince 2: A typical Singaporean with Catholic beliefs, come from a rather well-to-do family. He's soft-spoken, gentle, sweet too, and really knows how to pamper me. He offered to warm up my engine for me when i was away for holidays, and he got to travel to my place from work, which takes 20 minutes, and travel back home to Bukit Batok for another half an hour for consecutive 4 days, he will initiate to SMS and msn me everyday. Initially, he only have my msn address to chat and after like 2 weeks, i find that he's quite a nice person so i have given him my number. We went out for dinner a few times, he will wait for me to finish work and fetch me from my office before heading to dinner, send me back home before going home with another 30 minutes of travelling. We went to Genting together last Sunday, with his friends and my sister, he hold my hands while we were driving back from Genting on Tuesday, and never let go.

Actually, it's a little unfair to compare them both, as i have spent more time with No. 2 since he is in Singapore and i can only be on the phone and email with No. 1, even though, he called and email me everyday. And i just find that the time i spend with No. 1 is too short and we progress a little too fast. It could be normal for Caucasian to act this way, but it's a little way too fast for me. I spend more time with No. 2, for dinners and chats and we progress slowly from there which is more comfortable for me. He did not rush to hold my hands or get my numbers and everything. He asked when he thinks that it's time, he hold when he feels that it's right and they just come naturally... I guess time is really an issue for No. 1, he do not have time, since he's not here in Singapore and he's only here for 6 days.

I feel the same for both of them, and i did not particularly like anyone of them more as maybe they are both still new to me and there are certain things that i find are lacking in them or there are some things that i didn't really like them doing. Time will definately tells, but i guess i do not have much time as i didn't want to drag too long and utimately hurt one of them. I know it will still hurts but at least it's still in the early stage. I didn't want to make any wrong choices at this stage as i am not getting any younger, do not want to miss someone nice and do not want to choose the wrong one to accompany me in the later part of my life. I guess at this age (my age, 25), we should be looking for someone we can rely on for the rest of our lifes. That's what i told Ee Ling, whose 1 year older, facing the same delimma that i am in as well.

I think my stand here is quite clear, i should let No. 1 knows that before he came to Singapore for our birthday celebrations and also before he finds a company to relocate here. It might not change his mind into coming to Singapore, but i hope i can at least make it clear to him, i just feel bad that things doesn't work out for us and he's such a sweetie. Hope i did not make the wrong decision this time. It's such a hard choice. Why didn't one of them appear in my life earlier or later....